surreality

[AvecLion]

23 years ago this morning, I gave birth to a tiny little girl we nicknamed Noodle...this afternoon, I helped her son make her a birthday cake.

When she was born, the nurses came to my room and told me how beautiful and dainty she was. These days, she gets whistled at by highschoolers just stepping out the door to get her mail.

Swan stopped by with Annadot. The little girl who floored the audience in her dance recital has a little girl who is bouncing and twirling to the ABC song.

Somehow the scrawny little boy who licked the beaters clean whenever we made cake grew into a big man who still licks the beaters clean.

Kai called our house to wish her sister a happy birthday. In the back of my mind, I heard what she was saying, but it sounded exactly like when she spent hours babbling into a FisherPrice play phone.

Bree wanted to be a silver dinosaur when she grew up. Why is she dressing up and working as a sales associate? Where did the dream go?

Why is it on Noodle's birthday, I don't see my kids as they are - but as they were? Almost as if the little thems were superimposed over the grownup thems?

Somehow, it seems impossible that that much time has passed. I keep promising myself that I'm not going to take it for granted, I'm going to make more time - but then I realize yesterday was a year ago and there's just no way to catch up, let alone get ahead. What used to be a day is now a month.

Days like this, it feels like my life is a Dali painting.

[Mouse9]

Wow! Lion, you are a great writer. Good and profound thoughts and so true.

(I wonder how she could be a silver dragon? Maybe inside she is still that dragon.)

[Slitter]

Lion, I remember when I was pretty young, my grandmother told me how fast time goes by when you get older. Of course I thought she was nuts since it seemed FOREVER between birthdays to me, lol. I have to admit she was right though. I can't believe how fast time goes by now.

Not having grown kids of my own, I can't account for your hallucinations though! ;) We'll have to wait and see if somebody else who can validate that for you.

[AvecLion]

It was a weird day. Chase speaks nonstop, just like his mom - trust me, I have him 6 hours a day and he doesn't stop...EVER. And while he was chattering away, standing on a chair, covered with cake mix and it just brought back the memories of his mom helping bake for Christmas, standing on a chair, covered with flour head to toe, licking a spoon, chattering non-stop. In my mind's eye, I could see them side by side. I think they would have been great friends, but they'd have fought over who got to lick the bowl.

Like I mentioned in another post, I'm beat - my schedule is catching up with me - so it's probably more a case of me momentarily "catnapping" or something or waxing nostalgic cause the holidays are coming.

But then again, I see myself exactly as I was 25 years ago. It still shocks me when I look in the mirror and see my parents' faces morphed togther and looking back at me.

LOL - I figure I'm the one who get to be the silver dinosaur. And I've got the Bride of Frankenstein gray streaks to prove it! :lol2:




Braindead thought of the day. I have a picture of Noodle helping me bake cookies. I have a camera, it was even downstairs. I should have taken Chase's picture when he was cooking and photoshopped the two of them at age 4 "cooking together". It would have made a great birthday present for her. Duh. Bad Noni. Bad Mommy. But what did you expect from a graying Dinosaur?

[pocket]

Solution is to bake something else with Chase's help and snap the picture. With your schedule, more baking must be hard to fit in, though.

[An-g_BB]

LION!!! Thats awesome written sentiment! I know you are creative-- but if yo uwee to draw up a lil scene of a memory..then write about it... n give as
as a gift. My dad wrote up his memories on the day of my birth. -- in fact i remember i posted it here. but its lil things like that that become treasures!-- lil flashbacks(ohhh lost speak) ;)of time that totally went over their head.

my DH's gram was fond of saying when our boys were born...'they dont realize the time that flies over their head' ~ at the time-- yes i rolled my eyes n thought yah yah old granny!! lol. now i hear her voice echo in my head.... knowing full well what it meant.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOODLE! :)

[Gabby]

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What a great story!